Feh.

[miss_yt]

I've been trying to lose weight since I visited home on Thanksgiving, and have fallen terribly short of my goal. I have acne which has left splotches all over my skin. And in five days, I am going to be seeing my mother and maternal grandmother, both of whom are going to nag me about these things - my weight especially. I can't even risk telling my mother off, in part because we had a big fight at Thanksgiving, and also because Granny will not tolerate any backtalk (and she has enough to deal with, I don't want to upset her more).

Additionally, I have been trying to save more money but can't, I haven't joined any classes as I intended to, I've been too lazy to read or write much, and I have little hope of getting a date in the near future. I let my roommate treat me with contempt and don't tell her off, even though she did not graduate from college and doesn't have a job.[1] Oh, and our country is run by a bunch of crooks and tyrants and the polar ice caps are going to melt and disrupt the ocean currents and cause massive ecological disaster. And my cat has taken to tipping over the garbage cans in the apartment to find paper to play with.

At least I tried to get one of my stories published - I submitted it to a Philadelphia literary magazine. I'm not sure if it will get printed, because of course there is competition and I got a version of it printed before and said as much. But at least I did something.

Still, that is not nearly enough to redeem my general feelings of crappiness. And I feel crappy about feeling crappy, because I think that a good attitude is a vital part of the recipe for a good life. Man, everything sucks.



[1] To be fair, I don't think she intentionally treats me like that, and there are other factors to consider. But I really shouldn't take crap from her.

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[miss-yt.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the offer, but it will have to wait until after I get back from Florida. I'm coming home on the 31st.