No, I am NOT dead.

As I said in my last entry, I had to go for a long hard think this week. And it has been a very long week, partly because drakonous had to reschedule the Mage game for Sunday instead of Friday.

I don't know how to anticipate tomorrow - or, rather, later today. On the one hand I will be seeing scifantasy, and on the other hand...well, pretty much the same thing. At least I've sorted out my own feelings now, and I think I've figured out what I'm going to say. What I hope is that I will not screw this up and we will get back together. Then, perhaps, with better knowledge of how we should treat each other (which was lacking before), we will live happily ever after. Insomuch as possible, anyway.

On a totally different note, I wish to commemorate a momentous thing I accomplished this week - I used the word "schadenfreude" in an essay for class. I was making an offhand joke in the middle of a discussion about Gothic literature, so it's not that out of place.

I should try and get some sleep now. Easier said than done.

We Haven't Decided Yet

Officially, scifantasy and I are inconclusive. Personally, I think this is one of those situations where optimism and realism don't match up. Which is a mild way of putting what I'm really thinking.

Perhaps I'm being ungenerous, or I'm just depressed, but I'm expecting the worst.