Forebodings

[miss_yt]

This visit to Florida is serving as a fresh reminder that my mother's family is a bag of mixed nuts - really. I don't want to go into details, but it seems like every female in my mother's family has problems ranging from borderline neuroses to mental illness. And for the first time I'm afraid I'm going to turn out like one of them - I already have some problems and I'm afraid that once I hit a certain age I'm going to be extremely irritable or paranoid or just out of it. And my concerns are not at all alleviated by my little brother's assertion that I am going to turn out like my mother's sister, a possibility that I think my mother worries about herself. I keep forgetting how much these visits to my mother's parents make me hate my family.

Comments

[tempus-aeterna.livejournal.com]

Tell me about it. I do understand your concerns and have been dealing with the "I don't want to turn into my mother" issue recently. You just have to tell yourself you aren't going to do it. Identify the things that are putting you on that path and deal with them. Easier said than done!

[miss-yt.livejournal.com]

It's not so much my mother, I'm more worried about turning into my aunt or great-aunt.

[alashiya.livejournal.com]

When I'm sick, tired, or having a bad hair day, I have to keep a very firm hold on myself or I'll behave like my grandmother on my mom's side, who was NOT fun to be around.